The latest. / by Vanessa Fiola

It’s been a minute.

My heart, my angel, my very strong-willed little guy, turned six.

We went to Greece.

Jonah graduated from kindergarten.

Ryan is pitching his first show.

Work has been challenging in ways that have forced me to grow and learn and experience both discomfort and pride at the same time.

I lost a friendship but gained new ones.

And I’ve become a student again.

Back in late March or early April, I experienced PSYCH-K for the first time. Not a drug. Psych-K is an energy psychology designed to quickly unearth and shift subconscious belief patterns. I was a little slow on the pick up, probably because I’ve spent the last 15 or so years in the healing arts world, plus countless more in and out of different types of traditional therapy in which change comes after lots and lots of shedding and talking and I’m tired already. In other words, I thoroughly assumed that my emotional, spiritual and physiological shifts could be neither quick nor easy, and that suffering meant expansion.

It is common with Psych-K for people to experience big and exciting changes early on. People report changes in career, physical health improvements, repaired relationships, etc. For me it’s not so much what I received, although that’s been exciting too, but rather what’s disappeared.

Maybe a month or two after I started balancing (an activity which brings both hemispheres of the cerebral cortex into a state of communication with one another, thus supporting subconscious changes), it occurred to me that I hadn’t had a panic attack or anxiety spiral since I started. As someone who’s rarely gone a few days for decades without some sort of existential despair, this was huge. My brain became quieter. I remember the first time I showed up to a happy hour and didn’t hide behind a table to avoid an awkward conversation and then second-guessing everything I said after the fact.

So I went to training. First Basic, then Advanced (holy mind-blown!), then Health and Well Being (loved) and soon, Master Facilitation. The last of the courses, Divine Integration is on the horizon either later this year or early next. I love this modality. I treasure the peace of mind and growth I continue to experience. It is not a panacea, it is not a healer. I still have down days here and there, but it’s a pretty great new friend.