So I wrote that blog last night and then I was thinking about how essentially I'm just worrying if I'm doing "this" right. Drats. There I go with my right and wrong ways again. In theory I believe that willingness and action will always put you in the right direction but the brain forgets, so I have to be reminded.
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Do you ever have those experiences where it feels like you're in the flow of life and there's no noise, you're just purely connected? For me it happens so infrequently that I always want to hold on to it but of course as soon as I try, it's gone. On my drive to work this morning I had just one of those experiences -- there's no effort, no struggle, no worries, no thoughts -- just peaceful as if swimming underwater. It only lasted for about 30 seconds (actually I have no idea since when it happens it feels like time has stopped) and then it went away and I wondered if that's what it felt like ALL the time to be like Buddha or something.
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I quit the candy for a year and I'm thinking of following suit with desserts. For goshsakes I'm trying to learn commitment.