Almost somebody  / by vanessa

I did it. I feel like typing that about 175 times to hit the 500 word mark, but I won't. I made it 30 (stretched to 34) days. Yay, me. Today I tried to use the Somebody app again. I'm failing at this slowly. I signed up to deliver a message from Miranda to Clare. I dressed Jonah for the occasion, otherwise known as exiting our house, and coerced him into saying he was ready to undertake a mission. He confirmed this to me by declaring "Mission!" and raising his right index finger to charge forward.

I need to stop manipulating him.

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I was wearing what can only be described as hillbilly chic: Lee brand "vintage" overalls that I scored in East Nashville and cut off into culottes, worn with a sleeveless tee. Basically my favorite outfit ever. I hit "Deliver Message" because Miranda wanted Clare to know that she loved her and that she knows they don't see each other much anymore. That's a message I can get behind. I have lots of friends whom I adore and yet I see my dentist more often. Though truth be told I have a cute dentist.

So I signed up to deliver the first message in my neighborhood and waited. Then I waited some more. If I had one complaint about the Somebody app it would be that from the moment you select a "Floating" message to  deliver, you have to wait 45 minutes for the intended recipient to acknowledge that this is, yes, a great time to have a total stranger tell you something. I don't know if it's possible to hedge and apply to two message at once, but the Virgo rising in me gets twitchy at the thought of breaking rules.

That moment didn't come. She was both 1/3 of mile and forever away. I suppose she could be in a house with a xeriscaped yard at the end of my street doing life, but I pictured her down at Intelligentsia pouring over her unfinished screenplay and fighting with her sister-in-law over email, side-eyeing the women around her in their casual-perfect dress.

This is waiting
This is waiting

I waited around until Clare's non-answer became an answer. Nearing the 45 minute mark, I hopped in my car and went to the store, taking Jonah with me. Truthfully I sort of thoughthoped that maybe she would respond, and I'd have to drop my leeks and pink coconut water to fulfill my mission, but that moment never came. I really like to complete things and so far my two attempts to be Somebody remain just out of reach.